11/12/11


Today I lost my best friend. The cause is unknown. When I received the phone call this morning my world stopped. Not you. Anyone but you. You were my first love. You were my first kiss, my first boyfriend, the first hand I held, the first date I went on. You were my first friend to have a drivers license. You wrote me songs, handwritten cards, and notes. You were there for me when I was sick, or sad, or lonely. You were there when we hadn't talked in a while. You were there for me for 8 years. We decided we would marry if we were still single at age 25. We named our future son Melvin, because we knew he would be a red head and would be a nerd. You were there for me when my parents divorced, I was there when yours did. You loved me unconditionally, even when I was being stupid or selfish. You loved me when I lived near and when I lived far. The last thing you said to me was "I love you, I miss you, stay warm darling." You always kept me warm in my heart. Even from far away I knew you would do anything for me. You were a friend to everyone you met. You had the kindest heart of any person I have ever known. You had a love and a zest for life. You were always kind, tender, and genuine. You made people laugh. You made people feel welcome and included always. You were always popular, but never felt superior. You were going to travel the world. You were going to make films. You were going to be a wonderful father and husband. You truly left a legacy Spencer. I love you and miss you dearly. Some souls are just too good for this world. I bet Heavenly Father had better things planned for you. I know you are in a better place. Thank you for loving me like no one ever had. I'm sorry I didn't make time to go to lunch with you before I moved to Utah. This may be my biggest regret in life. I thought we'd have time later on. Life is too short. You taught me how to love and how to live. There is no one quite like you. You are so special to me. I will always keep a place for you in my heart SRW. Rest in peace dear friend.

15 comments:

Kasey Gentry said...

This is the sweetest thing I have ever read. I'm so sorry for your loss Nadia. He was such a good guy. Please take care. You and his family are in my prayers.

bloggirl1019 said...

this was beautiful. i'm so sorry that this happened. he really was the nicest boy. <3

Jenna said...

Nadia, I, like SO many others, was also shocked and saddened deeply to hear that Spencer had passed away. He was always so nice and friendly. My parents were friends with his at BYU and my mom says she still remembers the day Spencer was born. He was certainly one of the brighter lights on this earth and he will be missed.

I am so sorry you lost someone so close and dear to you. Hugs and prayers.

Jenna Robert said...

Gosh, he was so amazing. I love you Nadia, hang in there.

COLBZ said...

we were blessed to have known him and have him in our lives. He was seriously the nicest person I think I have ever met. I will miss him tons. I'm sorry I know you two were very close for so long. Stay positive like he was to all of us!

Kiersten Hart said...

Thanks for sharing that. He was one of a kind and will truly be missed by many.

Mary Dawn said...

so sorry for your loss nads :(

ms.composure said...

amazing post!!! sorry for your loss!
losing someone you are so close to is never easy

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Molly Belle said...

Oh Nadia, I am so sorry for your heartbreak. This is a beautiful tribute. My heart is hurting for you. I'll keep you in my prayers.

MaMaMaMandy said...

I know this is a bit late...but I've been thinking a while. I too lost my first boyfriend, kiss, love, etc...when I was 24. There are no words to fill that hole you must feel, but please know there is someone out there who knows that feeling of loss. Believe me, time does and will heal your wounds. Rely on the Lord- is the best advice I can give. He will bring you peace when the rest of the world demands so much of you. My heart goes out to you girl!!

Nguyen said...

this was beautiful ..

Nguyen said...

Very nice ..

Nguyen said...

Thanks for sharing that. He was one of a kind and will truly be missed by many...

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Most Adoringly said...

I don't know you, but I know a lot what these feelings written in this post are about. A few years back I lost someone who was the closest to me. No need to go onto details of my life, but i hope you find peace and comfort through these hard times. My heart is with you and the loss you have.