Well, secrets out. I'm expecting a little one Spring 2013.
My original plan was to keep this news a secret until January 7th when I find out the gender of the little one. (We assume it's a she, and we call her Coco). Unfortunately you can't always get what you want. Turns out rumors of my pregnancy spread like wildfire. Which shocked me because I only told my few, and closest friends. I admit I felt betrayed. But we all love a hot piece of gossip I guess. So in an attempt to stop the rumors, and cling to my remaining dignity I announced! The response was overwhelming. Hundreds of "likes" and comments and messages and tweets... isn't social media incredible? You post one picture and your world stops. I was pleasantly surprised by the outpouring of love and support I received. You all know who you are. I love you. I truly love you. I was offered a place to live by several of you. I was offered babysitting. I was offered a shoulder to cry on. I was offered Priesthood blessings. I was offered advice and support. I am so blessed you guys.
Unfortunately however, my announcement only fueled the gossip. It's fascinating to me that people care so much. I guess I should be, or could be, flattered (?) Friends of mine receiving text messages like "who's the father" and "does she even have a boyfriend?" I get it. I come out of no where, a vocally #stillsingle, Mormon, pregnant girl. It's shocking! Trust me my dears, it was shocking to me as well. I like to think I am a good person. I am an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I DO believe that sex is appropriate only within the sacred bonds of Marriage. I do attend church on Sundays. I do have a Testimony of this Gospel. I love it with my whole heart. I MADE A MISTAKE. Simple as that. Not to say my precious little baby in the making is a mistake. But yes, sex before marriage is a mistake. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. It complicates relationships. It confuses feelings of the heart. It creates a distance between you and your Heavenly Father. It offends the Spirit. It makes you feel cheap. It's simply NOT WORTH IT. Wait for marriage. Wait for that one person you trust, and love, and spend the rest of your life with. That's the person you share intimacy with. He/she is worth the wait. If you've already started having pre-marital sex. Stop. With the help of your Savior and your loving Bishop, just stop. You will be blessed.
Many of you have asked what I intend to do with my child. I am being prayerful at this time about the correct course of action. I have prayerfully considered adoption. I've also prayerfully considered raising this little one, alone. Scary I must admit. But I know in time, my Heavenly Father will help me make the best decision for my sweet Coco. I hope I have your continuing support as I simply DO MY BEST. If you are curious, or are tempted to Gossip (despite this incredibly exposing blog post), PLEASE CONTACT ME. Not my friends. Not my exes. Contact me. I don't bite. Let's talk!
Pregnant, single, Mormon girl.
PS: special shout out to my loving family. Also my Ernest. And My Caitlin. Thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder night after night. Thank you for your patience with my nausea and sensitivity to smell. And migraines. And moodiness. I love you guys so much.