Lately I have been pondering the phrase, "let go, let God." This phrase never had any effect on me until recently. I am 18 weeks pregnant and despite the prayers, and research, and support... I admit I still have a lot of confusion in my heart. I worry constantly about what is best for this little one. I think about this baby every minute. I don't know what the future holds for us. I don't know if I even have the resources to make it all work. All I know is I love this baby. And I love God. And I KNOW he loves me. In a world of so many unknowns, I have realized I simply need to let go. Let go of my incessant need to control everything, and to always have a perfectly designed plan. I just don't have that option anymore. I don't know where I'll be living when my lease ends in April. I don't know what will happen with my little one. I don't know the gender. I don't know my future. But Heavenly Father has always provided a way. As promised, he's always granted me the righteous desires of my heart. So this year, for 2013, I have one simple resolution...
At least twice a day. On my knees. I know I will be blessed. I know in God's time, I'll be provided with some much needed guidance. Of course I have other goals.... Fitness, to take the Sacrament, to visit the Temple again, to hold a calling, etc. But it all starts with prayer. Simple communication with my Father in Heaven.
If you have wondered what I've been up to lately....
Selfies to document my ever growing bump (and changing body, ew)
Adventures with the handsome Mr. Saco
(we bring Coco along of course)
And finally ringing in the New Year with a kiss. I am scared, excited, and anxious for 2013. It will surely be an adventure to remember.
PS: Gender reveal to come on Monday! GUESSES???