sleep, no sleep.

Please forgive my late night (well technically early morning) rant. Being "single" has forced me into situations where I'm making new friends and reuniting with old ones. Isn't that significant other quite the security blanket? I feel so naked without him... Like going to work and forgetting your cell phone. But all of these experiences have been amazing. I've learned and conversed with interesting people. And I've gotten to know my friends on a deeper level. And in turn I'm learning a lot about myself. Maybe in a sense, having a steady boyfriend is somewhat crippling. I shut my eyes to those around me. But in one of these conversations a friend and I got to talking about gender. How women think with their hearts, irrational and emotional. And how often times men think somewhat logically, but often sensually and insensitively. It's human nature. "Men are from mars, women are from venus" type-a-thing. I hate the cycle of dating that I've observed. Men want one thing, and if a woman gives it up she's "trashy" or "easy." If she doesn't, she's afraid to appear "boring" and he loses interest. And both genders don't want to seem to eager in the beginning, so they don't show any interest at all. But where does that get you? Everyone pretends to be indifferent in order to protect themselves from rejection. But I can finally understand why my single friends are so frustrated with dating. Insecurity is a turn off. But confidence is portrayed as arrogance. If you are too righteous you are "molly-mormon." And why do girls in their early twenties start to feel like old un-married hags?! These are topics that fascinate me. I do take into account that some of my friends are almost into their thirties and aren't married. And also that I've lived in the gilbert bubble too long..